Behind a wedding not ... love

Adultery)-I know I was wrong, I have nothing to be readers share, but I cannot be silent, as if silence, I would.

I still remember the old lover

I have a mistake, a mistake that I can never forgive myself, is that I have loved a man passionately, I love you more than all, loved more than myself, but I accepted to marry a man.

People that I didn't love, live with you I don't have feelings, so, to me as a husband living side poles, dishonorable. In I am 22 years old, at that time I was a student last year in a University, I met and loved him. The man more than I was 2 years old, and I study 2 tag. We know each other when you step into the fourth year, and I'm second year University. Off the field, he still regularly come to visit me, and we love each other. Love him, I feel is love, is happy. I know what is happy when there is a man always with you, sharing everything. I feel what is life, is love for life.

Time with me then really how precious, I cherish every moment of living this life, because I know, I have him in my heart, and my heart in shadows. However, my love had stumbled to the discouraging of my family. The first takes him about parents launches, we have encountered the opposition of the family. All, just because you're poor, and his future there is nothing guaranteed, that means, my life will be difficult. Meanwhile, my dad did the officers, out of school, I could get a job in his hometown without worry. However, to get the job, and to "keep the Chair", his father agreed to marry me for his boss's son.

Even when my husband

He is not a good man, but he left brains. He is the dream of many girls, but not mine. I have to find ways against the marriage , and convince people who love the same stand on his side. Initially, the love I also agree, but then my parents tried all ways to prevent, and was offended by the people who love me by saying "Chopsticks mold back demanding truck alloy wheels in g". And also from the sentence, he decided to go, to help to bring the "landmark" magic wand ". I strove dissuade people love but isn't, you said you have your self-esteem, and nobody is allowed to trampling on it, including my parents.

Synonymous with it, IE my parents have achieved their purpose. And the wedding between me and my father's boss's son is taking place, not because of love, but simply because I think, not the groom's lover, who also are the same. I keep thinking that, then the time will clear the argue goes all out, and then I will forget your sons have pride left me to go just because of her parents. I think women, easy to love, to live long with her husband then I will love you, ... but I was wrong. 2 years after the wedding, I can not forget a former lover, and I still remember about you spin the fan. More time with my husband that I still like to call the name of the lover. And then, last night, to my husband that I just want to cry, cry, cry for her fate left horizontal, and cried to feel regret and blame with her husband.

So, I found myself day end and not night sleep. Sometimes I want to give up all, to go somewhere far away from the place, where no one knows me, and I don't know who. I don't know what to do now to get rid of this obsession, to forget about a former lover and can love her husband.