There should retain the abortion of a night?

Throughout his youth, I plunge into the love story and play. Of course not play anymore but that damage type game style by indifferent, then Yes. I don't care, just like with men. Basis, easily man, woman or jealous. I have the feeling, so matched new youth, if not life indifferent, lo invisible thought then this life quite meaningless to me.

I have asked a few men but despite ' line ' always wary sons. I love, conception is right near each other, interested, both physically and mentally. Should close story lover as husband and wife is not what is with me, just don't get pregnant. Actually, I also have had sex one night in the tourist outing. But that also only stop in a night, no more no less.

I do not know the suffering ...

Other people can tell me this, I like that archrival but I leave. I live so feel myself comfortable, just comfortable. During 5 years, I live away so, anyone wearing one. Basic type like me then what it was preoccupied again, I just love to play.

Also ever love a man who sincerely but which came at near the wedding happen. We quarrel because no, and finally back to cancel the wedding. That is what makes the more I feel, no serious friendship. And then, the more I live the more unfocused in love.

On that fateful night, I spent a night with mistress men along the tourist bus. We go along the train and only two people, also to a location. During that time, we became a pair, traveling together. No you that natural back into a double. I believe that the accident was fate. And we had one night together.

I don't think his impartiality will be elected in that time. A few weeks later, I found myself pregnant, feeling really dissapointed and extremely scared. I was stunned when two pregnancy test sticks, I worry.

I cried throughout, first felt such fear. Before I let go of the release but never think about pregnancy. If pregnant, I really don't know how to resolve this.

Right now the sky is punished for loose living habits. I feel extremely regretful. If it was before, when young, can I wouldn't think too much of that left her child with no man knew. But now, I was not left with a young, also known has to think. Or maybe, when I have kids now, I really feel the divine mother love, feel the responsibility of the mother.

I am distressed to realize, I love his children oodles. So, leave me I nodded No. But keep the child, I would do here, will face mankind how, faced with my parents. Before the parents always expected anyway on girl like me, now I do that, what do other parents in shock, fainting away.

I got out, the last time I too waste age spring, waste age older to ham, giddy. I'm right is no daughter. Play the love, feel the love but now, like?

People have said to me, I'm giddy, loose living, which I now have elected the more they have a reason to say I. Left child, I will take the whole clean because anyway the man is not related to me. But now, my growing up day by day, the mother as I not ruthless. What do I do now?=