I have the 'to bed' with nearly 20 men at the age of 30

This year I am 30 years old, graduated from College, have a stable job. At present, I can still call is pretty, looks younger than his age I few years. I have yet to have a family.

I became a woman 3 years ago (artwork).

I live alone in a private apartment and have a life of love and sexuality is complicated. I've been to bed with almost 20 different man and is now completely disoriented. Please stop yelling at me because I self nhiếc yelled at herself enough. I know I'm unstable. Think that the words of the independent poignant people can lead me to death. I just hope the share would it help me to know what the situation and how to do good for yourself.

I became a woman 3 years ago. I know love late and also not having luck on the way. I've given in to the distraught woman's longing is love and look forward to responding. But the sender was not her best regards.

After 3 times fellatio and countless times paying quarrel. We disappear from his life. It is still the person I loved the most in your memory. But the emotional current that in me has died. Now stand in front of me as well as inert inert stone.

I'm not the woman endure loneliness. I quickly plunge into the arms of a second person. For this person, I have many regrets. It is a family man. Of course many will think man fornication cannot be good people. But I still believe he is a good man in a certain way. At least is the best among the men I have met.

I wish I was able to keep the friendship, or love him more, or at least stop that just grateful enough. But unfortunately I can not do anything out of it. I would like to have more but not ready to lose more. I need a love . And I've lost you forever.

Since then, I started to step on the treadmill of the relationship is staggering. Most of the people I know are on the internet. I'm her man at all. Although I'm not so stupid to not know doubt but I still want to believe more. Who said what I believe yours. Though also suspended dreams found the suspicious points, I still believe because "there is no why people say".

A lonely woman and, of course, not a few times I was tricked. In the reconciliation with the sewing, I realized the truth well not long after that rather than take long years, for men who had misled the family filter search happy or those who just want to have fun. No relationship lasted more than 2 months. As said, I've been to bed with almost 20 different man but not too bruised hits four times in almost every relationship.

I think I was a form of psychological trauma. I don't know, cherish yourself. I'm lost need pride of a woman. My mood is also very contradictory and confusing. Don't tell the scams, most of the men I meet are come to me easily.

They were initially attracted by I look handsome, talk and have a bit of something looks personality. But everything faded and they also left me not long after that. Form inside them is probably a woman too childish, frivolity, frail, easygoing, good thing, contradictions and fuss. Most of the times always abandoned me or at least feel themselves abandoned.

The key to all the pain is sex. I'm still very fine until it happens, I'd like to turn into a different person sadness, pessimism, frail, aggressive, say many, strange behaviour ... In general it is very messy. I do man fed up and tired.

Problem in that, although know but still I can't stop, I can't refuse. In part because the instinct, in part because of something ... I don't know, as a habit hard to edit. Even when I was still active even though people know that after that I always stress, and this relationship will become even worse.

I'm crazy enough to acquaint new only at new handheld and kissing up the cheeks, then all the fun before all vanish, I just think of the prospect of snow. To then I was an active person. I am drunk, called to come and pull him up to bed. Throughout my life I've never met God or man a really high bar.

Once I pull into the pillow blanket is not a man who would refuse. I can't explain his behavior. A large part of the men thought I was so great in bed but is perhaps unusual in that part of my personality to do they won't be. I cried at that time and in those or often paying later. I want to love, I really do not want sex like that but I always look to it. I went over every limit and do not know how to limit anymore. I'm slipping.

After every ending relationship, then I go search and find a new relationship is not full 2 months later. I won't be lonely long. The peak is recently I was dating 3 men at the same time. I hand in hand with all 3, Kiss 2 of whom had fellatio and 1 person.

I've been to bed with almost 20 different man (artwork).

Also I got to him in the drunk. Once the only bruised and that relationship also ends. No appointment that all 3 are all at the same time leaving me this way or the other. I fell into loneliness and extreme confusion. Because there are many men back, come and go in a short period of time, in my neighbor in soy sauce FRY, there are rumors that I do. I don't have to. I always go in search of love.

My little friends, but there are good friends. Those who understand me that I was always the girl longing for love, are, well, have the heart and sincere, sentimental, romantic. I used to think I am a faithful person and in respect of that.

But over many things, I no longer have faith in the faithful. I also never met anyone worthwhile to yourself can all end. I know most people who read this article will want, I reviled me, laughing at me. But I don't go looking for the obvious, I'd like to find a way out, rays 1.

At the age of 30, I'm still in a fruit loop in the loop forever and not know will look and go forward to the future path of his life how ...=