I obsessed husband with cancer when he was addicted to cigarettes

My husband is very good, my wife, the slog in the House never to me to action. He always shared everything, from work to home, taking the piece to afford the two exterior family. Many times I just expressed fatigue is always willing to do all the housework, child sleep so I was early. Many times I thank fate has to meet you, should charm the couple and brother-loving sincerely. So every time you see the smoke I was nervous tension, a fear of invisible and will take you into the hands of death.

Profound reason is that two years ago, husband and I witnessed my mother because you note that smoking, lung cancer and then died just a year after the outbreak. Uncle's wife to run for her husband to sell House selling, loan interest those looking forward can save notes, so that didn't win. Just because the tobacco that the couple also love son of iron that had to yin and Yang, the notes on getting married there in the party.

I'm so scared, haunted maybe God wants to remind something so new to the couple I witnessed and have time, almost half of care, helping her husband in the hospital. On the day witness the pain, the tears until Uncle died, I really stress, so that my husband doesn't seem afraid. For this I said exhausted, pale, and then admonished sweet getting past the big story making angry also, but I don't understand what the power of tobacco to a person injured his wife as her husband I could not because I quit smoking.

You know I don't like should also never publicly-in front of me. Many times you are sneaky smoke, found me yet put out just as bad as smoking a cigarette a child caught errors that I also found guilty. But don't understand why I can't compromise this with my husband. I fear a day will take you, two children will lose a father. How do I reduce this obsession?=