Fear haunts every night because marriage see buttocks, mother

This year I have 32 years. My friends are all married, even people who have had a second child, but I'm still odd ball goes on, still blankets the Pillow menu. The reason is because I am obsessed by his father.

Fear haunts every night because marriage see buttocks, her mother.

I'm not fortunate to enjoy clear innocent childhood as they are you. My mother is a wonderful woman, make sure you are, love my husband hurt my child. But the love of parents for taking the wrong place for a man like my father. Have to say, in the case of the mother, "daughter with my husband doesn't" totally wrong.

Our family has three siblings living in the Pacific. I am the youngest daughter. Right from young, to have tea and alcohol often borrow the excuse about beating my mother every absence of just what. From the feedback I grade 2, I had in mind as in the battle of horrible blow that he hit me every time my brother was poor. He is very sore, where it contacts that all used leather belts to a setback. I try fast exhausting pain does not dare to cry by his guest as pain cry than if. I still remember those times that my mom crying carpet set to conjure him but he does not condone. Only when he appeased the he stopped. By so right from young we were very scared of his father.

Also with his mother much more atrocious, just against his mother for whatever reason right though although 1 wrong is he also the upper foot forearm down immediately. I remember one time he demanded my mother cooked this dish dishes, my mother went to work on really should only speak with the accent a little bit uncomfortable, so he's the dang the French hand out slapped my mother broke the fireflies before the eyes eye stupor of the brothers. My mother's cheek swelling vù and in defending 5 following finger slap Sun Christmas. After these times so we hurt mom and dad hated but the kids as I know do anything else?

Do not stop there. my childhood longer pain when witnessing scenes like a ferocious demon got your hair stripped the clothes hit the middle of the night mom. The feedback that we are small so don't understand what happened but it is horrible for the memories I'll never forget. That our brothers are running to save neighbors then my mom recently freed if not sure mom has no life until now. For each thought that is I saw the shudder and weep because of injuries. I also wish that naive as yourself a little high then I have to hit the help I don't.

My mother is a woman endure and endure inconceivable.

My mother is a woman endure and endure inconceivable. Though I am with considerable bitterness like but never the mother intended to oppose. Can this personality by which my father as is reclaimed momentum. She just silently endure. Even cover up, does not want the children or relatives of the dead that live without excess blow battle she has had to endure. By then, our brothers from the mother's injuries were extremely small. We always try to study, to strive for good to look forward to making a lot of money to help her mother get rid of poverty and bring her run away to a place far away.

That dream gradually became reality when the three brothers I admission the renowned universities in Hanoi. We rent, do more to cover living expenses. Unlike the other family parents must run each Council worried about you learning to eat, my home, my brother should study well 3 term would also receive scholarships, also earn more money sent back to the mother.

Out of school with a degree of good types, our brothers and sisters are not hard to please is the income level quite, again with expertise. We still live in harmony and peace of warm together monthly, send money back to his parents. The times called enquire all saw my mother happy excited, thought silently that, now the adults help parents make strenuous is no longer the scene of violence. But it turns out, I'm not hitting my mother frequently during that time, she still had to hide us, the phone still teeming with mom's excited laughter hidden behind a physical pain. After this I know my mom like that, always endure sacrifices, always want you still pleased.

A few years later, when my brother was promoted to General Manager of a State-owned enterprise is also the time for us to find a way out. We are an apartment in Hanoi to welcome parents up in the end. Old house in the Pacific must sell to repurposed into the apartment above. And though I would not want to go in with us. We hope that now that I have changed the mood, witnessed the achievements of their children, the other will. But it turned out we were wrong.

The suffering remains perched until my mother forever. Now daily hourly witnessed the brute still no dad sorry mom causing my hand cramps.

He was very strong, the mad at him then a weak foot girl hand software can not do anything. My brother at that just dares you to keep me running. Someone asked me: why is big so that the children back to Dad, mom, but I really don't know how else. By then he was like an animal in the wild is very scary. He is willing to beat back any one who dared his rivals if. Even my brother has seen him holding knife threatened strike by having ' gone "he was no different, despite a deep spirit.

I recommend that parents should divorce but never mom had that concept. His mother said: my Mom trying to live up to this hour is because we. Though how is he the remains of our father. There are also more than not. My mom saw how tan crushed door family home, children suffering because the couple divorce, now she don't want you to be miserable. I convince her thousands of times still are not.

Many time I wonder, thankfully his brother's gentle nature, so no crime occurred and not sure the scene killed his father because the mother had defended happening right in this House.

3 brothers I have ever asked my mom put out the rent, to wear his father's in basic wandering then 1 alone is not the most down but back and it wouldn't be long. He called to apologize to weeping parents make parents leave mủi. One day he called my mother nearly 20 phone calls to apologize, resentment and blame ... remember her. Over each time like my mother back and mủi the smooth smooth only in short period of time. I just got angry just hurt because the mother of his weak effeminate but yeah then need to see mother too altruistic and forgiveness. Could you not say look he died. That's just my mother endured my father until now.

Daily hours now I always want to compensate for most mothers can go to work, how much money I spend money putting my mom traveled, mother care supplements I used li ever. Working on I just want fast fast about the mother party.

By now, so I don't dare get married despite his 32 years. In part because don't feel reassured when the far right of the mother, afraid to Miss dad died day mother.  Also the section again is by going through too many events should I find myself older too than age. I'm too sensitive and essential life before others. People love to close an eye but I can't do that. People look at life with pink Prism, I look at life with Prism not of. I hard that vibrations are others.  Only one or few times exposed, I was able to "read" the person is good or bad, or gentle, came to me for what purpose.

I'm afraid to go into the nightmare of his mother. I am afraid of marriage.=