Should I spend the night with the other person to 'formalize' abortion?

Me and my boyfriend have frequent contacts with each other. 10 months ago my monthly disappeared and I was pregnant. Your boyfriend wants to use pregnancy test rod and hold back abortion. But then I haven't been mentally prepared, I also do not believe in you because the two boys we have yet to determine the future. So, I silently abortionpill.

But our past Eve overnight together and without any contraceptive. I am late monthly. This time, boyfriend to buy pregnancy test sticks I try. But I fear and confusion. I hope to be back monthly. Wait forever don't see so I agreed to try. And more shock when in front of him, the result of bar 2 we found.

From when I'm pregnant, I'm shocked and confused. I do not know to handle? Currently I'm having 2 intended. Expect you to give me advice.

Plan 1: If keeping the back then I didn't know where I was when the refuge in Central, my parents had died, I had no siblings. Now I'm living alone in Saigon.

In particular, I will when your boyfriend than I am 9 years old but only work normal? He is very narcissistic and often alcohol tea, passion silver post? How much money you throw into these games red black, dissipated. As such you should I am very depressed, repeatedly demanded a separation. He does not agree, I also did not end up being as emotional for you so that. In summary, because he so should I do not want my children to have a father like that.Plan 2: I'm making a big plan for his business and will buy houses this year. I also have many other intended to settle in Saigon. If I kept the baby back in when things are unfinished, then hands me hugs, hand would work?

I am an independent girl, lovely, ... Besides I have a lot of successful men, mark, steady pursuit. Many people pursue many years despite the known or suspected I had your brother's are still not giving up.

There are crazy at thoughts, thought I had blindly, should his doses stay the night at the home of a man of the people who are chasing me to then legalizing abortion, there's a refuge. At the time, I will keep my back. Thinking that I'm hurt and bitter tears ứa.

I am a bad woman and unhappiness when not possible for my child to a family, a good father. Poor baby when have a mother like I hated. If is the mother or the child has a good father, then you will be welcome to wait in the happiness of love of parents.

These days, I imagine my beautiful daughter, is my copy, inherit the hair, eyes, my physique. That feeling so happy. But when he returns to reality, with the current circumstances, with the boyfriend, I don't deserve to make my mother, my child will incredibly miserable when had a mom like me, as a father you son. I have to do? Should I do a crazy as I think?=