I don't want to betray his wife but did not win the instinct

In my 27 years, I get married after 1 year to learn. But then I found out about the wedding her congenital heart disease. She's not very heavy, can still living and working normally, as long as not being touched and working too heavy.

Because I love her so I don't blame her for hiding the work themselves sick, on the contrary, I'm very dedicated to the care of his wife. Because my wife is not working can be powerful, our bedding isn't very gentle, romantic. Also so what our spouses becoming bland on boring. I usually have to go online to view the film to gain more inspiration then "close". the new few months Are also old gradually. Especially when I sit friends get together to "tell" me by about it. Who also boast a wife, wives bear play. Those of you not yet his wife, proud victory with many of you. I have nothing to tell and when is "list" then just smiled.

Not that I'm a susceptible impact friends, but I was the high demand. From within myself I felt if taken a wife, it could not satisfy his needs are emotional, then the family is easy to sway. I actually crave that feeling worthwhile, was intense.

My wife also know, she asked I have bored her? I remain comforted his wife that I'm okay, but I myself how much disappointment, I understand very clearly.

In a get it done, I bye you going about the crowd. But guys you hand's sailings I go forward increase 2. Here I used was a student last year. You serve here. Just an hour sitting in the Center together, I got the nod to go with me. I betrayed my wife and we rented a holiday home nearby and then spend the night together.

Back home, looking at my wife all night without sleep wait, I also feel guilty. But the instinct drives again I desire to see the other girl. I lied to my wife that I should sleep at home too drunk you're you. Then I go change clothes and go to work.

These days, I see her again. My wife never doubt me. Truly, then, I still love for my wife so I don't intend to divorce. I know the work you are doing is wrong, but when the girl called, I have never refused.

We stealthily through together was far more than 3 months. Every month, I pay for her students that one small paragraph. I know is beyond me, maybe that girl also have few other guests. But I have no sentiment should only act upon emotion only so that I am not jealous.  Some day ago, my wife only I could with the players I want to pregnant, wanted to give me a child. She said that was examined and the doctor said if carefully watched closely then can still bear children. Know the grief of his wife, I am very touched, in the heart suddenly surges, the movement's guilt. I promise to yourself will terminate with the other girls and the side of his wife.

But, on the one hand I don't want to betray his wife again, on the one hand I wouldn't be like this scene. I don't know how to do now?=