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Food — dangerously, I must admit — doesn't mean much to me. In a fight between hunger and appetite, neither win out because I never really feel hungry, and my appetite is too bourgeois to be truly sated at home.
And that's me on good days.
On bad days, when my depression hits, both hunger and appetite go out the window.
Hunger comes, more like a sad unannounced doorbell ring, where ignoring the ring provides the same effect as answering it. I've gone to bed when the sun is still up, to avoid hunger — and avoid the cooking, cleaning, and waiting for a meal I don't even want to be ready.
I'm trying to work through this non-relationship with food though, and part of it has been accepting that food doesn't have to mean anything. It's food context I crave: fancy plating, traveling, date nights, and so on. But in the case of depression, the context is general avoidance of everything that reminds me of existing.
So here's my go-to meal for not wanting to think at all, especially not about food (so boring).
Keeping yourself regular When a depressive episode would for last days, it used to lead to constipation because I didn't eat enough fiber. While yes, this is easy to make, honest to God this recipe has me coming back because it keeps me pooping — the highlight of living.
Now eat. Most of the dishes can be rinsed quickly with hot water or left until tomorrow, where there won't be a crusty reminder of what you ate last night. You can also repeat tomorrow with same ingredients, if you feel like it.
Christal Yuen is an editor at Healthline who writes and edits content revolving around sex, beauty, health, and wellness. She's constantly looking for ways to help readers forge their own health journey. You can find her on Twitter.