Doctor 10 years do not sleep alone since his wife's death day

I am a doctor in love, married since the age of 25, I have 3 sons. Over age 40 do not guarantee health I retired and opened shops selling drugs. With the amount of area of cop, plus monthly pension paragraph I invest for children education, buying gold hoarding. Now we have it, there is a private career should the House only two elderly grandparents.

Outsiders look at the often chattering that my husband has the condition, but both spouses who are also skinny, sick. The reason is because I am addicted to smoking, drinking wine. On a packet of drugs, three meals of alcohol are equally as breathing, I leave the laments, name-calling of his wife. I think "life gauge, happy little old there are stars".

I found myself is no husband, I never really loved his wife.

Also my wife, by the organs of people which had small, age is also a factor causing her health days a weak. Also many times she called for sore, tired calls for demanding hospital visit. But when she says so, I gotten away, also by skilled doctor husband, I don't want my wife to the hospital.

I told her, the hospital has just expensive, just take time so just stay home I examined. I listed a few for her prescription, long long time tv again for her water to enhance health.

I remember very clearly at the time I had told her that "I also moderate to medium. Righteous husband is why doctors insist the hospital examination ever. You keep at home treatment you will take care of you. That need good fat free health as being ".

At the time, I thought simply because she's tired, so the new world. I remain serene entrust ceases to work for her. The three-day feast bưng pouring water for her husband, added it was cleaning, wipe off 3 minutes have the floor I see she's gorgeous.

Tell her to stay away, but because of work should she keep trying. To-night to her back pain makes me tired sounding call for the brain aches don't sleep she is crying rưng General rức.

Then one day, the husband and wife quarrel to, I asked a buddy along to travel somewhere for a few days. My wife knows about, sorry I got it gặng me at home. She said, she takes me next. When I can't take her crying like a child.

"All my life, I wouldn't be going anywhere for now I have to go for the Exchange effort, she don't stop what I'm doing." Say I carry a backpack and going to wear chới with my wife.

In do son was 2 days I received my wife's ill son afraid never. I hurried back and then as limp when he saw her limbs bruising because the blood vessels rupture the plate once. Now I see she's just leather upholstery.

When the doctor called me in and said, "your wife being the last stages of lung cancer, she on here when critical condition hardly pass. I quote to you know longer preparing ", I have quiet a long while I do not doubt her sick like that. I ask the doctor but he was gone, she accompanied nurses still say Allied lined "you doctor should know what illness his wife but also the treatment. If you give her a visit from the beginning then should your fears ... ".

Since my wife is sick, I have closed the store sold drugs to make time for her. Throughout these dozen years living together, this is the first time I am taking my wife. I fumble to cook porridge, bathing for the wife, I read stories to her ... At this point, my wife very happy. Also, I find myself extremely fault, I thought in my heart, I have to care about her more, listen to respect her even more.

Also my wife, she doesn't know herself sick laugh comes through. She did draw out the prospect in the future cause I do not hold the tears ... At that, I estimate the price as time back I will live, I will not leave the woman I love the polar bear suffering like that. Then I am afraid that one day, I no longer see my wife, don't see that smile in my life.

My children also come to our regular chat asking thoughtful considerate mother. However we also unremitting lyrics too blame me. They say I don't take to be their mother.

And then I woke up one morning, she goes back to normal and said she was fine. Her claim was going to play, is to house the children I played with you, she demanded to go visit relatives, brothers, ... And to my mother to burn incense. I thought the brand experience, should take only cook for her drink. The good things than when my wife's delicious food, sleep. But where are the few minutes of her disease recurrence and worse.

The winter of that year, on the night of August 8, have heavy rain, I have just retrieved medicine for her neighbors remember his wife screamed incredibly done. His own interest in the wife more then where should my fears. I wish the price as time returned, I will do other than.

I ran up to the room, I thought as my wife is asleep but in fact she had lost, I cried like a child away from the mother. I realize I'm the husband unconscious mind has no responsibility. My wife was gone, it was the night of 8 August 2004.

After the death of his wife I live so alone. Many people find me lọm khọm, they told me I should take a step further. There are also people who introduced me to this other Lady, Lady but I have declined. Yesterday Mrs Q neighbors (widow) also offer love to live with me. I also loved her, but me too.

I'm afraid my children do not agree, and they still didn't stop too angry because I am responsible for the death of his mother. I know I have a lot of errors, but I really love the child. So what should I do to get them to forgive me, I have to do to live in serenity the rest? Please point me to.=