I want to be 'spoiled'

I quite like music should be very romantic, upbeat music. I also have a good singing voice, know, know poetry, and play a lot of sports ... for friends, I am a very enthusiastic and always play hard. I never take advantage of anyone, never a bad play and in the relationship, I also never embarrass people go along ... but besides that advantage, I again have the downside is getting past the hot, testy and too candid.

I was prepared to step over the age of 24 and I think, with what I myself have above, I will be happy in love... but the things she apparently never occurred to me. To date, I have never been a true love, or in other words is no one truly loved me.

Here four years ago, I have a boyfriend. From the formula for the level to the plight of families of people who are lost to me in every way ... but I still accept them because I think that he has hurt him earnestly. We met in an accident should reside when they love each other, love clay is due. He does not need to put the time and money to pursuing me and I also do not take too much time to get to know him. Then, I like him because he's kind, gentle, honest and a little mausoleum station ... but after this, I truly feel remorse because a computer is too honest to that of him.

He is too honest, gentle, whereas I get too tricky and personality. We never talk together should always occur in conflict, quarrel. At the instigation of two different people would we reviled each other and no one is in favour of looking at anyone.

We love each other but do not get the gentle gesture, caress like the others. Perhaps so that our love is always in the morning and have never gone over the limit allowed. Although our love story also bland song we still try together almost 3 years. And over a period of time, I have never betrayed or do the sins to him. But then, after three years of his is anti up to endure together, also our affair ended.

Since the breakup of the old lover, there are many men who look up to me, also, you also have friends, men who accidentally meet each other and then pursue I also is not less. They are all successful ones, have style ... song I find in them who would also look the same in a score: draw, broke and always express yourself. Sorry but true! I'm not a stupid girl to listen to them about myself? Because of those things so I feel these actions and their words very much Khe and made me feel really uncomfortable.

There are people who at first came to me also very sincere, decent and kind ... but gradually they took away from me cause I could not understand why I was doing something wrong because I'm still a human, that personality, not changed. Or affordable by me too bad because I always keep myself and never dare to do anything beyond the limit allows? Because people still often say that love to have sex, I just love sharing, empathy, love, ... rather than the desire, the desire of sensuality.

When I don't feel with this man, I'm trying to find out other men ... but I feel it looks like a hundred people they are very similar. They are all actively acquainted I, and proved to be very excited, enthusiastic when in my sidebar but when dating, they suggest to sex, even have people meet me for the first time has demanded holding hands and kissing me. Affordable when looking at me, they think I'm a girl and formidable experience, also "Did not hand over the little guy" should they plain to me so!

Before getting the word out to anyone, or sit opposite the one they just hint to what I face horrible sex them with these words: "rigid You are decent people. Do you feel you are doing, don't do it. I'm not simple nor easily taken advantage of as I thought "and when finished it, I stood up out of not a little regret.

I can't remember how many people you've met, also could not remember the names, the man was dating my offer .... but until now, I feel I no longer have faith in love anymore? Why is a beautiful woman and good as I don't have to be a love affair would right?

Sometimes when I want to indulge yourself to become a spoiled ... just so I will not be man away and dull. Or I will be a tough girl to acquaint many wealthy people and taking advantage of them as love wind clouds fly ... but I could not do so.

If, as now, there is someone who truly loves me and wants to marry me, I won't be stuck with them, nor does appreciation of White's daughters anymore, I will love and love yourself, do not preserve as his former love again ... because I'm a girl and play then why I suffered so unlucky? Although I always live, always keep the distance with the man but does anyone still believe I am the person in the morning? They came to me just want to find a strange sensation, like to "quick quick wins fight" to record into your table or to strong breeze with friends ... but when I know I'm not the easygoing, they hurry away.

I'm the modern girl, personality ... but I'm not that girl Cyprian and lack of education. I do also think to the family, loved ones ... but why men on this earth can bring to me a love of the ordinary and simple as knowing how to love others? I'm really very sad and feel miserable! I need a love, need a sincere and lasting relationship, need a decent man and a field ... but I went through how the path yet found where?

Can you tell me who you are? He is somewhere in this world?=