Love the new people, the old people still want to meet

Love someone new, but I still want to see old people

I was 23 years old, has just graduated from University. Student years I had a very nice relationship with a boyfriend in college. We have loved each other since last year. How many sad memories of the fun students have ever spent. Thought, love will forever until the out field, but then we separated after only a few months. Cause by the last year of College, his father ill, that he is alone he is my son, my sister has already married. So, you want to go home to apply for jobs, for health care. Also, I'm the Hanoi, my parents never accepted I go home with you. I also never thought I'd go home to live, because from the little I have born and grown up on this piece of land, and my parents also here. I don't want to away from what I love ... that's why we separated. Sadly, both me and you all feel that. But both decided to split up, because living our circumstances va vary too much. The separation, but sometimes we still communicate with each other via chat, phone and asking the health situation, the work of each other. He was pleased to work in close to home, and I currently do accounting in a University in Hanoi. The work was stable, should also check out the breastplates, and then set the problem, question, request, but I have no special feelings with anyone. Because I am afraid to start a new relationship with someone.

His parents, I am afraid I won't get married, that age is also no longer young, so I urged my husband story also or. Not so impatient parents, I also accept love a-he is a friend of a sister to do the same with my agency. I don't have anything special to you emotionally to say love, but I get the safety if the latest relationship with you. Because you're gentle, steady job, homes back in Hanoi, so sure there will be no reason to break up like me and former lover. There are things, got word of love, but do not understand how I always remember about his former lover. Every time he did I imagine this is the picture of the old lover-who was sticking with me for several years.

And I always have the feeling myself at fault with him, because he did not go home. So, I always keep a certain distance with new people, and always fear when thinking of one day getting married and my wife. There are 5 minutes away to play with new people, I left crying and hugging click to call phone number ex, just to hear his voice, and to cry with him. There are times, he had occasion out of Hanoi, I left work to go see him, and when I'm home, I again thẫn Church as the lost soul.

I don't understand it myself, I don't want to go home to live with me, because I'm afraid of life in his home country does not fit me. But I dare not tell you to up the city life along with me, because I know in my hometown you have old, there are sick people in need of health care, if you do so I would be selfish and greedy. What should I do to forget him, forget the memories that I student and I share. What should I do to be able to love him, and to replace the old one in my heart?=