My husband treated me like a whore ...

My husband treated me as a sex toy

To say these things indeed I also extremely embarrassed, but if not I'm afraid to say that one day that I am no longer alone that lives on the planet ... or could also be I live without by death. Not as lucky as to how much the other daughter, I was born in a poor farming family white trash, blue flood ... back worse than when I owned an ugly thick body. So during the period is considered the most beautiful of the time my daughter always wore, ... and never dare to be confident in themselves, "beauty". I also have never dared to wish will have a man who loves her and retrieved about the wife. So when someone brought me to a man than a borders, again had two life his wife had divorced, the family I was advised I agree, for fear of having his daughter, her husband's unsuccessful. Well no other choice, so I decided to get the man who has twice abandoned wife doing her husband. Wedding day I also try to do enough to change, domesticated humans, your personality ... But in the end all of I also become meaningless, he still proved he challenged, despotic, brute, like the old days. Worse than when my husband has both amorous habits more gambling, alcohol đúm flock of tea ... you're very or money of the family to drop into the red and the black gamble out wine night throughout the morning. Even more humiliating is that after drunk times so he brought me out to make things entertaining toys "sexual" to satisfy the needs of the sick. You catch me to serve you all the ways that he learned in the disc "sex" with the times out with fun play village girl ... sometimes he used all the other external assistance instruments to take my body to reach the purposes meets the Rapture of his illness. And all those times so I must reluctantly, docile to meet your requirements. Because just action, I have a something to resist, then y as reviled that he will beat me and maybe even worse, like a pet. I attempted to follow the teeth bite, but always felt extremely humiliated and not a prostitute rather than I can't see what that emotion was filthy and dirty. I hate you and hate you. There have been so many times I wanted to die, death will cease all die, I'll be freed from bad people and filthy. But still my baby, thinking of you, I feel responsible. But I want a divorce, the thing, when I just said out of his intentions, then my parents were screaming up, and told me that, if the divorce goes, going, not for the home, and didn't see any more. Because my family back home, still the feudal ideology, should divorce story is incredibly awful. Because so far, no one in the family to divorce husband/wife. I also never tells the story of being the husband of sexual violence for parents and families. I'm as stuck in the pain, want to get rid of the wisdom that dare to release themselves. By the burden on his shoulder is a child, and her parents. I want to get the tips from readers.      Naik (NB)=