7 years I do the 'third person' of the teacher and ... have elected

I am a shadow life mistakes lũi behind a man with his wife.

The early days, the story break of grade girls I primarily about him. New big girl, not yet a times know what love should look on the opposite sex quite simply and fondly. We believe that no finger rings are unmarried teacher, both cloud spoiled daydreaming, racing each other to score points in the eyes of the idol. More than a year passed, I still cherish very strange emotional stuff in heart, thinking about you every day, eat well, sleep well, don't even think about you also dream. He is the driving force to my school, he also noted.

It's a beautiful day in early April, he called me down telling Office sometime Friday related to the presented certificate of merit. The first time I sat with him, hearing him say things in addition to books, from having to say I was thrilled. The attention, he's considerate at that, his sympathetic eyes upon hearing about my family haunt me until now. Such is my love for you on a lot more.

And then I heard he had a wife and two beautiful little girls, are separated. I was a bit sad and lan man understands why you eyes or the distance looking at me like that. These days, after which he devoted much more attention, asking me every day, and I can share everything with you. And what's to come, we also love each other. The first night together, he confessed the couple have not separated but live is not happy.

I would trade him, thinking if I was the wife will never hurt you. In life would speak the word, when the emotional climax is also married at I caught him happy, goes hand in hand in the Church. Like a wild beast was hit by name, I roar, squirming along with extreme pain both physically and mentally. I am adamant, suffering with feeling like I had been betrayed.

You to beg, say these words earnestly makes me happy. I believe you truly love yourself, promise to marry as soon as I graduated. I also know you who are responsible with family, very hurt, so I never thought I would marry her. In I don't look forward to break the family.

I blindly jump to, trying to justify his "love no errors", so that we have to love each other more than 7 years, meaning I did shadow during 7 years. The daylight I self reassurance that he loves me and I never want to Rob my husband's sister, night feeling guilty covering me, not to tolerate any more I turned into cries rưng rức. I don't know what to do right.

More than a billion times I want to stop, want is a decent woman but when determination you sick, back pain, and then I beat up up, running to the running back that worried him. Time hackers tongue "pitches this time.", and then I got pregnant, of course, except because you are not ready to have kids with me should always carefully when two close.

In my heart always exist a string of contradictions.

I hid what the child but also don't keep the child, back again I'm miserable, unpleasant, alone. I know very well, his definitive departure just then all suffering will no longer, but perhaps that is just the physical suffering, rather than the spirit I will lose a very big about nothing could be offset if no. I know its too soft, just hearing the footsteps of you I know you are sad or happy, how can you be far away. In my heart always exist a string of contradictions. What should I do?=