Pregnant with the love, I should 'food' or the courage to give up?

Through the night with people who don't love themselves ...

Out of school youth, the desire to me to work in a large company, salary, stability, computer I own from baby so increasingly I work out to be a field of life in the environment. But there is no denying that I'm very lonely in friendship, while your friends and colleagues have asked each other up, flower car I still alone. At idle, or to facebook and other community sites to share the grief and joy, and I know you, a single high school but also study abroad. Maybe also due to the emotional deprivation, he talked very earnestly and know how interested others. When I hear you call long distance power, sick visits, even thanks to your friends buy flowers on the occasion of the ceremony to donate to me. Perhaps you're missing women or daydreaming in my back, I walk on and hope to meet you affection.

A year later he finished the course to about water, we see and the truth suddenly is handsome, form than in the photo, I took a look and touch of hope which is a nice start. Time passed, I still keep me in when I'm weak or tired, but her feelings with you, maybe you should just everything just played out in silence. Then unexpectedly, he said that he accepted the invitation to love a girl, she is his old classmates from high school 3, accidentally meet again and she actively flirting. I say happy for you, but indeed in the heart hurt.

Thought everything will pass then on one evening he said that having an argument with your girlfriend, you're with me were sitting drinking a lot of alcohol, but he's not good drink should he say, she say in English itself, and I also do not themselves, we embrace each other and together on holiday homes. I really don't want to stop, partly because well screwed, part is because I love you, too.Later that night, he said that he was sorry too. I also say that that doesn't affect my friendship and he, a part is also due to my error. I love her, and I'm still alone. But I recently discovered that I was pregnant, I was crying a lot because not sure what processing, food he does not give, because I do not want to break the happiness that you are, but if abortion then I too painful, do not do, retaining a child to lam single mom, he'll feel if know , and I can once more stand or not? What do I do now?=