Knowing her husband live test, my heart breaking

Good Lan. I accidentally read her story and I found almost identical with the plight of the couple. The other was the only live test is my husband. I and my husband have his time in love more than a year, then go to the marriage. Before getting married I also have experienced a love affair, but we just stopped in embrace, never go too limited love. After parting lovers, I met my husband now. He is a man not handsome, not ga Tomb, nor wealthy. But he's gentler, and seems trustworthy, we love each other and marry.

From knowing my husband used to live try I always have the feeling of fear when close. I ask myself that don't know 2 years live test together my husband and the girl did it together how many times

In his thinking from love until the wife did, I always thought her husband is a proper man, I still fondly think that will never know "the smell". That's true again. Married for a few months I discovered after school my husband has ever lived as husband and wife for 2 years with a poor girl he 5 years, but lest I do not accept that should he hid us. His family also hide us I about this. I am very shocked about the truth of that, and the more shocked than by in my mind I never thought her husband had once had loose lifestyle and easygoing. I'm disappointed in him and felt his heart pain, like someone stabbing. I felt like I was betrayed. I was crying all night and paying her husband, and you just know an apology to me. Do not accept her husband's apology, but I don't know what to do other nhẻ leave my husband, I dare not make the decision. By I'm afraid, I'm afraid everyone around will look like, and then my family, my parents will face how to work I leave my husband, ... much to think that forced me to accept to continue the marriage. But in his heart I always feel my husband cheated, I always feel warm memories and marginalized, to every thought of it I always feel hated him immensely. Also from when my husband has lived with other women before marriage I began to doubt your husband. I started not to believe in the things her husband said, and began to suspect him, to doubt the relationship. Should I always worried every time he comes home late, or do you have occasion to travel through the night. I always worry, and fear of him cheating. Not only that, from knowing her husband used to live try I also have the feeling of fear every time her husband fellatio. Because each time my husband intimacy, I envisioned the scene you have intimacy with her. Say I am jealous with his former lover is true, despite knowing that the jealous is ridiculous. And then I ask myself, did not know her and my husband was making out with each other many times in the two years they lived together as husband and wife, then I fear, is there when you have a child with the other girl that hid me?. Also don't know how many times I ask her crush and wanted to ask you that, she and I who make you feel "satisfied" than in it?. Is a woman that I was hard to accept what her husband used to live try so then fan the man as her husband you have response demanded divorce when his wife discovered live test is usually only love Ian. I think you should give her husband some time for him to accept this truth , but just accept only Ian, did forgive you entirely then I thought would never at all. You'll still be my husband about it, and all the jute that's for sure, but that's the price you pay for his loose lifestyle. United  =