I'm les: life after marriage a les

I did not dare tell anyone about myself, I am afraid people will alienate, stigma to me. Photo illustrations

My wedding was taking place on a sunny, fall day and the wind was lighter, and my groom is not a woman as in the dream I still dream I still encountered, that it was a genuine man.

My parents are happy because most people have "push" the bomb slowly out of the home, I didn't feel happy. I don't even buy sell, fix for wedding shopping. Wedding night, I can't wait, don't feel nothing but pleasing afternoon my husband so I still wear the dress of sleep that my husband bought. And that night, I have officially become a "woman". My husband is very happy, because I never thought that I was "virginity".

Happy wedding to be a docile wife, the professional should after the wedding, my husband as loving me more, and always treated me like one of their own treasures. He confessed, had sex with a couple of her previous lover, but no one felt "reassured" and satisfying as his wife. Also, I don't have a bad feeling love, fellatio, but I know the position of a wife is like, should I keep him docile like to do what. Sometimes, I even pretend to prove himself very satisfied and happy. But behind the contentment and happiness is both a pain no stars can. I also don't know what to describe how back to the you understand my feelings, just say that it's truly awful. And I always fear when her husband fellatio scene recall, and moments of pretending as being very satisfied. I have fallen into a State of severe stress. After hours, I dare not go home, because I was afraid of her husband lovingly eyes looking at me, and I'm afraid my husband back all throughout my body, feeling that true chills. So, sometimes I wander after hours, and deliberately returned home late, the truth to my husband no longer loves me. But he is a husband, a man the best that I know of, so the more I like you more and more love, so for that I have to work hard so late.

He offered to pick me up after hours, no other way, I must return home right now, and accepted as a docile wife, always make my husband happy. And then I also have elected, my husband so much fun. I also have fun, but not happy about to motherhood, which pleased can this is the reason for me to "embargo" to you in a long time. I lied to him, the doctor said my body was not, back then many were expecting their first child (I was 30 years old) so are diets the cavalry charge "it" until childbirth. My husband accepted, you said "He will do it, because my wife". So from now, after hours I can return home without fear of being her husband's harassment. My life at the moment is the most comfortable. But how long that lasted, by after 9 months, I gave birth to a baby girl, and when my child has just rounded up a month-old, is also at my husband began demanding strongly about "it".

I also dare not fight, because I know, over the last 10 months my husband has "go" and you certainly won't with a woman other than his wife for the duration. I'm a normal woman, I very happy about this. But because I was les, should it so awful. I feared husbands side, I fear having to pretend to be satisfied and happy with the love of her husband and her life are.

I want to become a bad woman, not to my husband hate me, and without love, no longer wanted to live with me anymore. I rented the home and neglect of children. That said, "the love of the man starts from the stomach", should I give up the cooking rice for my husband's always eating, and don't Cook the food he likes. But my husband doesn't understand my intentions. Thus he strove dissuade, and talk to my parents, so they advised his daughter, because he said, he wanted to keep the family happy. My parents crying, begging me to take interest in her husband, children and keeping the family happy. I hurt her parents, ill still have to đáu pain concern for the life of me, should try to try more. I intentionally do well the role of a good wife, said taking theafternoon, her husband, ... but for how long, I felt motivated to life lie. I like to live the life of himself-a less really, and do not want to continue their identities concealed. Once again, I became a woman. And this time, I will resolve. By me, if any lives lie like this, I would be the most painful because dare not staying true to yourself, what's more, I also do not bring happiness for her husband to be. But to my husband away from me, that's extremely difficult. No longer in any other way, I was telling the truth of her body parts with a friend since college, and thanks to him as my lover, my husband to know what purpose that left me. This friend agreed. From that day, I dress better, closer, makeup and perfume spray more frequently when away from home. I deliberately more shopping, and go early, of late more to my husband to Italy.

He is a good husband, a small change of your wife also discovered. He "warned" me, but more so, the more I do to. You hire someone to track me, I know, and deliberately "dating" a way more bombast. When then in the Café, when then motels, hotels.

When his wife was formally known "affair" with another man, he brought the photographs I and "Mistress" in the coffee, and then together go to the hotel to go home to give it to me, and told me to stop before it is too late.

As you know, I was a good wife, and these actions just because the milieu, the lack of thinking. He also got to meet "Mistress", and advised him to stop, don't ruin the happiness of my family. He promised "the lover," will forgive all my sins. The selfless, as makes me feel painful and hard to think. I say straight to you that, I no longer love him anymore, if living together then only make each other more misery, let me go. But you do not accept, as you said, to him, family is important. I don't want my children to live in emotional deprivation of the father or the mother. Because English itself, is also a child have to live in families. Parents put together when he was 5 years old, his mother round took him to adulthood. I was so enraged that tear the heart can very much for your statement, I was crying a lot because why good men and responsible with his family, his wife, and as he does not meet the woman better than I. I hated myself, and hate the depravity in his thinking hard.

I was going to accept living this life lie, so he was happy, and I will have to live in the love of the father and the mother. But the selfishness of had I not won her thoughts when I think of those dozen years of his life, I must live in deceit and false.

"The lover" has not agreed to continue helping me after my husband got to meet and please him. I have to go find "partners". This time, I'm not telling the truth body parts, and no thanks to them pretending anymore that is made real. The first day home with the lover, I have clips and capture the images, then bruised deliberately sent home for her husband. Finished watching the clip and pictures his wife himself fellatio man, my husband was extremely shocked, and chased me out of the House. She could salvage the marriage , she could hold my heart, he signed on to simple divorce to release me. The Court accepted for you raising children as proposed by him, there is also the will of me. Because I know, I'm not qualified to do my mother, because I know her child, how important for your life. Now I was a free woman. Though that to get this result cost is huge. All friends, my husband, relatives, even parents blame me, treated me as a woman loàn mausoleum, a wife, not mother. Abandoned husband, leave me to run according to the son. That's the thing I most humiliating and painful. But I have to think a lot before doing this, and I accept the grim. Simple, because I want to live true to yourself, because I know I cannot bring happiness for her husband, her children, if continued to live with them ... I too bad right?!  =