No age, parents who love me abortion

How should I do now? Retained abortion or pregnancy?

I've talked to him several times about this, because he is my son, age 29, married, no matter what. Also my daughter as I wait 4 years then get married too long. Now 25 years old, my parents also urge married again is wait the years anymore.

British computer effeminate and mother should always seek to wait: "I take to he told his mother. Parents do so also to good for us ". Actually I see many at depressed and tired with love always depends on the parents and the mother.

But now I am pregnant again, I did not intend to bring the affair to have elected to force him to marry. Because I enough awake to know how is right, to not be considered family. I knew I was pregnant when the abortion was more than two months.

I announced my pregnancy for you to know, you surprised to fear: "I thought you had to use the measures. Now this pregnancy, how now? Hours not knowing his mother is there for no wedding. To you about told me see stars. I knew for sure was also angry! ".

His words made me so disappointed. When I need your encouragement, I depend and trust me the intense rice cold water. You need to demonstrate accountability and a field man is fear, fear of my mother not agree. I thought that was missed, only is married, over here you still worry parents not to marry, are about to tell you then have to resolve.

A week after I got pregnant, he and his mother discussed how to resolve. You said: "your mother just go, he said this child was born not of age, not destined to their parents. And it is also engraved with his mother. If born out, then everything in the family not favorable, business loss, which can lead to debt. Come on, I leave this baby has brother ".

His mother is also the woman that does not understand the grief of the mother when things are breaking down the center of her child? This is my fault, why am I can catch the innocent children have to suffer the consequences? Thinking of breaking abortion that I almost fell into a panic, feeling guilty is always weighing. I don't have enough courage to do it.

But if I keep abortion that British family wedding should I do? By I know, parents superstitions to the extent such fanatics, they are willing not to marry for fear of feeding failure ... as teller said. Also my boyfriend, a person does not have a field, always dependent on your parents like that, would you dare to feed the baby with me or not? Or do you still listen to their parents?

I also fear that when a child is born, his family think I pressed them to marry, they will see I and prohibition between me and him. How should I do now? Retained abortion or pregnancy?

Both schemes are too miserable and causing me grief. If let abortion, be sure all my life I have to live in paying and suffering. Also if kept abortion, I am afraid I will be single mothers. What do I do to solve this.=