I suffer 'presentable' of my wife

To "protect" the "presentable", "happy" that more than 20 years with my wife she has never known the loving emotion expression when her husband's Party

My wife and I have been married for more than 20 years. Our generation weddings usually have no love, just through matchmaking, introduction. My wife and I, too, came together not because of love.

My wife is a woman who was born to a family of teachers, claims she is the teacher who taught me to College. He also helped me a lot when I was a student and after school, he also suggested that the School Board keeps me in back to school teaching.

Grateful for the help of the teacher should after the successful heaven I've married the daughter of the master, this is also considered as the "return the favor" for the teacher. Because it is also the desire of the master. Friends along the course with me said I was lucky because the teacher support in learning, work, and be the teacher marry her daughter "alcohol" wonderful, presentable. The time I just know a smirk, a smile, laughing up because the "happiness" are there that many people still dreaming, laughing because the unspeakable joy hard to say when the wife of a women always describes herself as "presentable", "almond". To "protect" the "presentable", "happy" that more than 20 years with my wife she has never known the loving emotion expression when her husband's Party. She has never actively kissing me, also has never proved exciting husband to caress.

At first, I thought, and then in time, time will make her change, but the past 20 years remained the same, she is still happy weather protection of himself by "stops had left" the caress of her husband. She's always trying to prove what is not sexual at all, and she lives don't need sex. So every time I want to close my wife are expressed no interest, or reluctant to PM my husband and the face also can not show emotion. She also never "moaning" up, took one to show that you are happy. I pride month, hitting his wife, but she also did not know that, also not actively done good with me. Then I back right down to the water to be closer to her, but the feeling of shame as go begging his wife's love. Upset, disappointed, I have many times will look to the village girl games, to really be sex right, rather than the "alms" as my wife still do. But think think again I didn't have enough courage by too many reasons.

Her father is the master, is my benefactor, he has helped me a lot in my work, my life; and then I was a teacher stood on the podium, as if my students don't know what they will think about me, I am no longer eligible to stand in front of the students, teaching them about ethics, about the human way of life, ... Much reason enough to hold me back, so I don't dare to be yourself, have fun and laugh like myself are very happy with a subtle lack of wife, lack of emotions and feelings.

Friends I still commended I luckily get presentable wife, but respectable that to my husband smiles like this worth?. I've been too keenly decorum of the wife, and the estimated price as she do not presentable, sure I'm not suffering like this.  =