Her husband's adultery is my fault!

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Hello readers of the category of living and sharing, I was Nguyen Thi Binh-Gia Lam, Ha Noi. This year I was almost 40 years old, and had lived on the day end, dismay, about a family, a marriage is not happy. That causes the family to push this situation no one else is.

I was born and raised in a family with both his father and mother, I also was taught kindness every issue prior to adulthood, but there is a problem I never teach anyone that is sexual, and the role of sex with respect to keeping happy in marriage

In 20 years I took my husband, the man I married is also the person I have ever loved and he loves me. My family lives in the early years was quite happy and peaceful, but do not understand why I feel the affection between the couple became separated, and then recently I discovered her husband frequently with an other woman was more than a year. The man she no distant but cordial's with my husband, the husband she died 3 years ago due to a labor accident.

Painful thing for me is my husband's mistress back poorly about it all, from work, to beauty, stature, ... Like many other women, when her husband has another woman I also crazy, also hatred, also making noise and abuse my husband is irresponsible man with his family, his wife, ...

My husband also understands the feeling of his wife, often silent even for do what I want. Makes me feel warm memories, and do not understand why my husband back affair, I also do not know where I was wrong, ...

www.phunutoday has the mentality of you All-men 15 years of "please" and told me that, I'm not the woman in the center of this, and I also like the man in the Center. From when married to now, nearly 20 years had passed but I've never once "loved" him. He was too tired with the role of an active man, always have to go begging for love in his wife, he was tired and wanted to be changed for a long time, but I've deliberately not to understand this, I never do well the role of a wife with her husband , and that is why I look to another woman, worse than children, less smart than me, but she knew him more dimension. Living with her, he feels himself to be respected, to be loved, were attractive and meaningful with your life, not like at your side, ...

Listen to your heart, I like dead silence. The evening news, the wrath of me picking up to the top, I tear into him, crying and name-calling. But other than all the times, you can't hold me, not pampering comfort, which left to wear with my heart hurt.

I plan to house the woman for you, but my pride back drag shock me back. Back home, alone is in the couple's shared apartment, where I still considered, why today it stark and incredibly murky, that night I could not wink, I thought a lot about his sayings and actions, "attitude" in "love" with him. And I was crying, crying because I knew I was wrong and I feel love and her husband, because the unconscious mind that her husband became an unfaithful man.

I want to do it again to hold her husband returned with his family, but I still don't know where to start and how to start. I'm also scared, not knowing her husband can I forget about the other woman to come back with my mother again?

Nguyen Thi Binh (Gia Lam-HN)=