Later in life I understood her husband

I injured myself, and injured body parts for the women

On 20/8/2011

Dear! I am the LH. This year I am over 40 years old. I am extremely distressed when his apartment caught the cancer of lungs, and more suffering than when the last days of his life, I understand that to date I still delusional about a life, a love, a perfect husband.

Me and my husband together, and learn together and love each other and go to marriage after he came of age. Married, me and he left his homeland to the city please do workers in the factory and in the Inn where Pilgrim. The salaries of workers who have to rent, should we also not well-off, but how much of this year, we still always keep very cosy family atmosphere and happy. Small family of the couple and 2 children, a son, a daughter, we always laughter, who looked into the well to envy and dream. I also always feel satisfied with his happiness, and silently thank heaven has given me a husband thoroughly loving and caring for his wife, ...

But then, a disaster befell my family. After many months of tiredness and coughing, to kick off balance how much smoking not from I decided to go out and visit Hanoi discovered lung cancer stage 3. This information not only shock for me that shock with all his relatives, especially my husband.

This attitude of my husband was making those siblings of me extremely angry, they called my husband out talking frankly to figure out the best deal for my health. However, after saying that I feel emotionally more distant husband and wife, the husband's action gestures for me was also lovingly over her husband's interest, for me, the more my husband came to visit me more often, ..., but the care and supervision he always feels very very compelling rice and not real.

After two months in hospital surgical removal of part of the lung and to do chemotherapy, I returned home with the hope his illness will relieved, but recent tests left doctors conclude I have been spread and the ability to cure virtually very little. But they don't speak out, but I understand that the time of my life on this make sure the realms no more. With the thought "have slapped" so the siblings of mine suggested my husband though it takes most of the property also must try to run for your wife, but my husband didn't want to do that. Although not said straight out but he told me that his wife had tried how much the new year hoping to buy land for the city to later children have to go in, but the disease of children could lose all.

He also tried to cure me, though that's very expensive, but the results I've seen, ... then I suggest if I say everyone in the family, and for my dad.

I don't blame you, because I know now I'm suffering before the fact. But indeed, the attitude of you did I feel very painful in the last days of his life. All well only in the poor should turn people to become poor white trash away.

I see myself, and injured body parts for the women!=