Happiness lies not in the hymen

My husband never mentioning what I'm not bleeding in the first and we're very happy.

Hello readers! I am a woman more than 30 years. Reading your posts I really sympathetic Kati with you. Do not hide anything Kati and readers, I also was once a girls virginity very seriously and never think you will to lose virginity details before the wedding night. But really, I didn't do that. That year I am 25 years old, I have loved one. Our love is beautiful but also more turbulent. Not by preventing either side of the family, which by various us too much. People love me, he "claimed" to love is to have sex. I reversed, never accept sexual relations before marriage. To keep is virginity, I had many times rejected the testimony of the love and the two seduce us usually occur quarrel. There are times to go, convinced me to not be sex, he put me straight on, but when found out I jumped down when the car is still running. And then you said, if I keep the virginity then will not keep my heart. I love you, love you so much, so I have to accept sexual relations, and "bargain" with that lover, this is the first time and will also be the last time. I agree, and we're on vacation together. But after the first time, he convinced me, you said "I also keep gone what to do"; then you need to keep "; "Anyway I married"; ... but I don't give in, and then we must separate. After the breakup he, like many of the girls and no Kati Virgin white before marriage, I always live in the inferiority, sin, and do not want socializing, making friends with anyone.

I also dare not open yourself to receive the affection of anyone, because I am afraid they will require in me that I have no integrity. So, 3 years later I don't love anyone, though few can pursue. Until one day, I met you-my husband now. He was not handsome, and not born in a rich family, but I feel emotionally for me more than all the previous man for himself. Then I accept him, not because of love, because you sure think that getting that I will be happy.

I think, no happiness lies in the word Virgin

However, I also dare say out all the Kong the truth that I am a girl not intact. He also never asked me that, but I know, I always thought I was a docile girl and know keep themselves. That will make me feel a lot more pain. Wedding days, I live in the mood of anxiety and fear when thinking about the wedding night. Say I fear I discovered I am not a virgin white.

I think of many ways to you're not discovered, would then bite the hand made blood smeared down the ga bed, then vaginal bleeding to structure and create "false field"; then do the fake hymen; ... But I have not done. That night, I'm not bleeding, and I also felt there was an error with my husband. I thought that you would ask me about it, but he was silent and still respect me. There are times, my husband and I said, sure I have made the hymen "special" so not broke when having sex. I do not know you don't discover truth, or pretend not to know to make me happy. Just know that we still live happy and never one thing what with each other since the wedding day.

I think, happiness and respect for each other is not located in the hymen, so you Kati and the other men don't snob virginity. Because when they were truly in love, then work longer or losing meant nothing.

Minhhang18...  =