The mentality of a teacher 15 years of 'please' love

Hello readers of www.phunutoday, was from a long time ago I wanted to speak up the Center of her with someone but not yet dare to say, I recently read or be the center of a number of people submitted report, I found after reading the many readers who comment, and post the feedback have driven analysis and solve very or so, today I write out of his mind, very looking forward to posting, to get the feedback of readers and have solutions for his problems.

The couple this year I have almost 40 years of age, living in a suburban district of Hanoi. We've been married almost 15 years and have 2 children, my older son this year also was 14 years old and my daughter is 12 years old. I'm level teacher, while my wife she traded clothing fashion, so the overall household I also kind of well-to-do in countryside. The children are also very docile, so I feel satisfied about his happiness.

However, one thing that how many years now I have never feel satisfied is exactly when we do "it" with each other. Man, don't speak out, then you also know, needs our sex is higher than the sisters, however, I always have to "hold it" for fear of being rejected or wife does not want to "please" the wife must love themselves.

I also do not understand why, but since married to now, she has never won the world "actively" about yourself in the "it" that's me. Already, every time I have a need, and want to meet his wife, she always expressed an attitude of discomfort or a "real partnership". So I always have the feeling like yourself who go "conjure" love in his wife.

There are 2 minutes, noticed his wife being very desire, but when I "touched" on is she still trying to evince the attitude "had left the" style "housing have also been, there is also no stars", as to me to beg her. This lasted from when married to now and made me feel very sad. I always aspire to be once his wife "loved" me, so I feel confident and feel is also attractive to his woman, but my wife never understand what I'm thinking.

Many times I used to think that I will go out, look to the games village girl to be "spoil" and they "love" her, but actually I do not have enough stop. Because although I'm also a teacher, so I do not have enough confident stand class and told his students about the ethical, I'm also afraid if I go, talking to my wife's ear, the happy family will break, and people suffering most are the children.

I think, or has she been apathetic, but not, because when the "steamer" she still performed "energetically". Sometimes I think she no longer loved me, and are United, but not, I did take 1 week to monitor but not see her dating with anyone. More from the wedding on her still.

I also have found to psychological experts, they advised I should talk frankly with the wife of his thoughts, and buy related books about her reading, ... I also have followed with his wife hope will "open carry the eye", but the result is don't change anything. My wife still "emotionless" before the thoughts and my desires.

Now I begin to tire of the role of "active" and "beg to be loved". But I also know how to do to my wife in "it", you would have to experience something or please share with me. I would like to thank the many.=